First they worm their way into your heart and then they spring their nasty surprises. Only, you are not a saint, you are just as bad as the worst of them. The only difference is that you know it. You are repeatedly given the opportunity to learn the same lesson and each time you fail the stakes get even higher. And when you finally realize your mistake and decide to go straight? Life gets a lot worse and seems like it will never get better. You feel sorry for yourself. You are bigger than all your friends because you have a bigger heart.