Years ago I was watching Apocalypse Now, and I started having pounding headaches. It lasted for weeks, and a doctor said it was stress.Sometimes I’ll link a particular film to a particular experience/thought, and I’m afraid (but would like) to see it. I have OCD with this too…Anyone else understand me/been through it? My therapist says it is OCD.
So are you watching movies now? Or did you give it up and are wondering if you can start again?
I watch films all the time; It’s that particular experience with Apocalypse Now was the headaches: negative association…I want to watch it ,but am afraid (I do have ocd) Or I’m afraid to watch 8 and a Half, but it reminds me of a negative experience/thought…but, would love to watch it.
It sounds to me like you’re describing a conditioned aversion, which can certainly occur without OCD. Do you have similar headaches in other conditions?
I know that the headaches were just a coincidence while watching AN; so the only way to face this fear is just to watch it,right?I’m 36, so its not that I am a veteran;LOL. With 8 and a half, which I’m afraid to watch, because of the scene of Marciano seeing his dead parents in the afterlife (or was it in a dream). My biggest fear is the death of my parents.
Have you discussed this with your therapist?
Well, exposure therapy to APOCALYPSE NOW is the most commonly agreed-upon method to confronting the OCD, so start watchin’!
I’d say start out in circumstances as different as you can from the last viewing, and maybe just committ to watching only the first 15 minutes. Make it as easy as possible and don’t turn it into the Ludovico technique for yourself.
Matt Parks is passing on sage advise.
I also have OCD. That’s why I’ve purchased/traded 540 movies on DVD in less than four years. I also have a ‘want list’ of 125 more. By the way, that list just grows and grows. Doubt that OCD contributes to your aversions.
Something that I do may actually be beneficial to you. The goal is to remember that it’s ‘just a movie’. I alway watch/ listen to extras and commentaries unless they totally bore me to death. This happens occasionally, but not frequently.
Apocalypse Now – There is a scene where Marlon Brando is framed in a doorway. Brando was so fat that they kept moving the camera farther and farther from the doorway. Finally they had to scrap Brando and use a stand-in. By now the camera was so far away you’d never know it wasn’t him. That tidbit sure reduced the fear factor and yup, got that and more from the extras.
8 1/2 – Do you know the reason for the title? Hilarious! Marcello Mastroiani played the role of (pretended he was) director Federicko Fellini. Fellini, although not physically attractive, had so much charm that he could coerce women to do his bidding almost at will. The buxom woman who played Mastroiani’s mistress in the film was…guess what…Fellini’s actual mistress for almost two decades. What power! Her husband and Fellini’s wife both knew this. Yup, got that and more from the extras.
Remember, Pasoliniplease, they are just movies. And your name is rather provocative. You may wish to change it to something like ‘JacquesTatiplease’.